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I’m sitting alone, in the sharpen darkness, watching the nothingness and thinking what’s to do. I’m afraid to hurt you anymo’, I’m afraid to close my eyes, because I might see my past, my fears, my demons.

I’m dissappointing a lot of you, people, but in the very same time, I impress some of you.

Me, the cold bitch has melted ?

In my head lies now the anarchy, the chaos. Question marks, dots, commas. The answer that I found now is that I want to walk again with you in the winter cold, to laugh with you, to stare and drown in your disturbing eyes. I am confused. And guess what ? I’m not the only one..

I’m dancing in the darkness, locked in my head, somewhere above, with my demons or my angels. Wise advisers, anyhow, afterhours.

Tears in my veins, tears that are not mine. Blue blood, true blood, venomous – now’s seeping violently from my wounds.  I want to bleed ’till I’ll dry.

Again questioning myself, in the darkness..but the answers are coming from underworld. The room ain’t the same anymore. The things  are moving, the shadows are showing me want I wanna see, but they are scaring the shit out of me.

Anger, hate, love, pain, but nothing feels like emptiness, like nothing.. Like how’s to be rotten on inside.